HI everyone and welcome to my home online... MY Blog. I basically haven't done too much just trying to getting a family Movie finished before I head home to New York with my Family. Since the Summer I have had few changes that have effected how I have been living my life now.
The Break-Up
The Break-Up well it had to happen, there's gonna be a break up in a relationship and ours had to end. Daniel and I did break up about when the Fall semester started.
It was the Hardest break up I have had and really a life ch
anging experience. For Thanksgiving my family was invited by Daniel's Family to spent it with them. It was a wonderful time, very thankful for knowing his family and spending the day with them. Since the turkey day, Daniel still lives in Idaho and very happy to be there. As for me my life started to change intensely.
I was able to
move up from a Collector to a
n Administrative Assistant at work. I was now one of the assistants for the Chair of the Collections Department and Accounting. It was a great move but not so hot in the income aspect. Since i was already in a posit
ion that was on very tight on budget it was very low pay for what I did. Once Thanksgiving rolled around my employer informed me that the department was no longer going to be in Orem and would be moving locations at the beinging of the year. We were going to be in a location further north and would not raise my wage for the commute. I knew the move would not be fitting for me and I would need to get my head screwed on straight and find a new job.
I first had to fix the problem of returning back to school and paying my past school debt by finding a new job in Utah, next transportation was no longer going to be provided and I would no longer have the car. Lastly I fell in love with Daniel while we dated and I wanted to be and relocate where he was. All the ideas I had were not coming together. Finally when I decide to move to New York it made more sense.
It was NOT an easy decision. I was confused for months and weeks about this decision. I didn't know
how, where and who I would meet out there to get my life back on track. It all came in pieces, at first the only thing that came to mind was leaving Utah. That's it, nothing else but just move out of here. Then knowing where I should move was the biggest step. Move but where to: Hawaii, Idaho and New York were my top three places. As time went by I was able to narrow it down on what I was looking for, what were my goals in the next 5 years.
My thoughts were: 1st goal is being at a 0$ balance with my past school tuition. Second Goal, not stressing on transportation. Third, dating again. Not just any "hot" guy, but having a relationship built of friendship and trust. I am EVEN picker and more Aggressive on letting any guy into my heart. The guy must want the gospel and show it by living their life already as an active member or being Temple worthy. It's no
t easy, but being active tells a lot about your character because they want it and not lowering their standards. With these goals in mind i started choosing my location and seeing if i felt good about it or even if it made sense.
I went toward finding a job in Idaho, and going were Daniel was. I started to look for housing, which was cheap but no luck finding my wage I was desiring. It was if I was in Utah but now with Daniel again, low income and no car. I couldn't base my decision on love and follow a guy. The next location was Hawaii, I had been to Hawaii and lived there but the dating was not going to improve, I was going to get guys that did not fit what I was looking for, surfer boy, not in school and not ready for life was not it. Finally New York, I was terrified. Mainly because I knew its not a cheap city, people are more crude and I had to be very very independent once again. It was not going to be easy at all. It did fit everything I was looking for, no transportation needed and most importantly my wage would pay off and work again with a satisfaction of getting paid what I deserved.
There were advantages to moving to New York too, I would be
with my Father who I never got to know, spend time with my cousins, brothers and my GRANDMOTHER. I felt time was ticking and I needed to spend a lo
t of time with her. Not only was my wage going up but for once I did not need to stress about getting a car. I could focus on my school debt and get it paid A LOT faster then expected being anywhere else. I have so little left that I am pretty happy to be living life and not a Heavy load is on me. The fact i could take small trips and everything is SO close was a huge plus. I have A.D.D. on staying in the same place and this would help me out too. Anything from Philly to Niagara Falls was all a train trip away :) After knowing this was it, I had decided my next step in life, I was No longer Confused and HAPPY again !
